Freshman Poems









losing a best friend.

At that point in my life, I was putting myself in situations I wasn’t responsible for. It started with the freshman year of meeting new people. Out of all the people at this school, I came across a mysterious individual that changed the way I saw the world. That changed me forever. I see things differently now. We started with the laughs and smiles. Helping each other through all our struggles. We ended with arguments and discussions. Known you since grade school. Believed you were a great person. In my mind, I saw a smart, caring, funny, and talented individual. I saw it all wrong. After school was Starbucks and talking for hours on the grass. I started to feel the uncertainty and confusion. I knew this wasn’t the type of bond I needed. We weren’t the way we use to. The bond was separating between us. You changed the way you brought out yourself. You revealed your mask. This wasn’t the person I was friends with. All I could see through you was negativity. I tried my best to help. But the more I helped, you didn’t take it. The pain you felt brought tears to my eyes. The bad choices you were making shredded me to pieces. The words that came out of your mouth wasn’t you. The way you brought me down. Carrying your emotions and problems on my back. I felt dreaded and tired. I wasn’t myself anymore. I sheltered myself in. I felt lost. Looking for the person I use to be. I felt like I was drowning in your feelings. Feeling blamed for everything. The feeling like I couldn’t breathe, all these worries suffocated me. You didn’t care about the words that came out of mouth. Hoping that you would be you again. That I could see your smile again. Even though I knew you weren’t healthy for me, I still pulled everything aside to help. I remember the day I had to making a hard decision to hold on or let go. We made new friends and became strangers. You were my reason for changing the way I see myself in certain situations. To not let people take advantage of me. To think about myself first and make my own decisions without worrying about what others tell me to do. Knowing when I should cut myself out of something I don't feel comfortable with. I've learned to watch what situations I don't want to be responsible of. Also reminding myself that it's not my responsibility to change someone. They can change who they are and take the time and effort in doing things that can help them. ttthank you. 

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